Sorry for not writing yesterday I was dealing with the bullshit. Not just any baby father bullshit, but the kind of bullshit that makes you want to hurt him just because. In all my years of life, I have never had so much bullshit as I encounter now. I mean daily shit, from him, my sister, my mother and even my child. Though her bullshit is more along the lines of saying no to everything I say.
I really wonder why men even say they will do, when in the long run they never do. "I will be there whenever you need me" that is my baby fathers favorite line. Considering he let me know at 3 in the morning he would be here to come and watch his child so I could continue to do housing renovations that I alone with one other person is trying to complete. It is now 10 in the morning, and his ass still isn't here. Did I mention my child would not go back to sleep last night when she woke up at 4 right as I was trying to go to bed. Then she took a nap, and is back up. More active than ever. So I am now cranky and pissed off. Then when I call him and ask him what is he doing, he lets me know he is sleeping. Like he is justified by that. SMH(shaking my head) when we go off it is because of the bullshit. Yesterday knowing I get our child early on Friday he waits to five to get her. Doesn't let me know he is getting her until, he gets to my house. 20 mins after I had already picked her up. The messed up part was, I got as nail in my foot, and I was bleeding horribly to get my child. Yet, I am a mom right. We feel no pain, we are supposed to be the energizer bunny, and not complain. Yea, right. The bullshit always gets me. Since today is Saturday, I figure I will have tons more to share with you about it later.
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Saturday, August 21, 2010
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Change goes Both Ways
Today an associate of my baby father and I decided he was going to lecture me on being a good woman. The conversation, though an interesting one, came after my baby father accused me of sleeping with him, and I had to put the whole situation on blast. I had to laugh while I listened to this man, tell me how a woman should act when they love the father of their children. A joke, considering men don't change the way they act when they have children.
Mind you this man has two baby mommas, so drama must fall his way. Especially considering he let me know he does things to spite his baby mothers. Now, common sense would seem, if you don't want the drama why cause the issue. I mean it is clear to me, and when men do what they need to do women tend to treat them kindly. We shower them with love of all kinds, but when they act stupid we trip out. I get it, and I would assume that you guys get it too. SO why start drama?
He let me know, I am supposed to act in a fashion that my man find appropriate. He just don't know that if I did what my baby father wanted me to do, I would be pregnant again. AND, I swore to myself that I am never having anymore children. The first pregnancy was an utter nightmare for me, why would I want to inflict that kind of torture on myself again? Yet, during his rant, I wanted to know why men don't act the way they did when WE (women) first met them. They want us to act the way we did before the 2 A.M wake up calls, spit-ups, and diapers. WHY can't they act the way they were before the I'm too busy, staying out all hours, having meaningful conversations with other women. Change goes both ways in a relationship. It takes two to make a child, it takes two to raise a child. Why should women change for a man who is not willing to change for them? Why can't men understand that having a child changes a woman from the inside out? No one is ever the same after the birth of any child. That is why I wont be having anymore.
Mind you this man has two baby mommas, so drama must fall his way. Especially considering he let me know he does things to spite his baby mothers. Now, common sense would seem, if you don't want the drama why cause the issue. I mean it is clear to me, and when men do what they need to do women tend to treat them kindly. We shower them with love of all kinds, but when they act stupid we trip out. I get it, and I would assume that you guys get it too. SO why start drama?
He let me know, I am supposed to act in a fashion that my man find appropriate. He just don't know that if I did what my baby father wanted me to do, I would be pregnant again. AND, I swore to myself that I am never having anymore children. The first pregnancy was an utter nightmare for me, why would I want to inflict that kind of torture on myself again? Yet, during his rant, I wanted to know why men don't act the way they did when WE (women) first met them. They want us to act the way we did before the 2 A.M wake up calls, spit-ups, and diapers. WHY can't they act the way they were before the I'm too busy, staying out all hours, having meaningful conversations with other women. Change goes both ways in a relationship. It takes two to make a child, it takes two to raise a child. Why should women change for a man who is not willing to change for them? Why can't men understand that having a child changes a woman from the inside out? No one is ever the same after the birth of any child. That is why I wont be having anymore.
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